I love and miss my euphoric mania but to fast they became angry psychotic mania after awhile. Psychosis is generally not pretty. With meds I'm on the high side of normal which is nice. My extremes are not as high/low but they last longer. Meaning depression actually become dangerous to me when it has never been before. I get to enjoy and use my highs more. Stable does not mean normal in my case it means carefully and nearly missing being hospitalized at times.

I continue to get help solely for my family and my fear of incarceration. Have you looked into a high intensity sport?