Just wanted to say a heartfelt thanks to you for helping me at lowest ebb last night. You kept me going when it was really unbearable.

As an update, my meeting with my boss went well and they're really pleased with me in the job - I can't quite believe it but going to try for now. Got straight on the phone at lunchtime to a private pdoc to try to book an appointment elsewhere - the huge swing from last night and how awful I felt (and admitting it fully) to feeling pretty good today has brought it home to me that something must be very out of kilter, I guess severe anxiety or a mood disorder. It's really weird, I kind of have an anxiety hangover today, as though I should feel really scared, and my head is trying to wind me up and get me upset about small things, but (for now) I can recognize that they don't merit being sick with fear over. I can see the con of it all.