That's good to hear that you're gaining a better understanding of how to regulate your emotions. Budgets are a trigger for me too. I recently went a really bad spending spree (long story) and now have to deal with these high credit card payments. I've found that writing things in my budget like "I have a plan" or "Payments will go down as balance gets paid off" seem to sort of help. And I know without a budget- I wouldn't be able to make the changes that I need to do long-term. I've been in a slightly hypomanic state- been really get a lot of stuff done workwise- but need to be careful.