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Originally Posted by tigergirl
I'm glad you asked and that it worked out with a session this week  is there a reason you are usually only seeing your T every other week?
i would be ick'd out to hear it as well! |
Thanks Tigergirl... I thought it was weird that I was icked out, so glad to hear it's not just me!
re: every other week, yeah, there's a couple reasons...
1. He's a private T, not on my insurance, and is sort of crazy expensive. And, unfortunately, I'm not crazy rich to match that
I actually have been playing with my budget, and think I may be able to handle every week by creatively moving some things around... but gosh it's so much money. *sigh*
2. I've had alot of rotten therapy experience in the past. Previous therapy made me feel much more crazy, and really left me in a bad place... it's taken awhile to be willing to try again (that and my crazy mom has just retired, and wants to spend ALOT more time with me - I feel like I need a pro to help me deal with that alone
). Anyway, my hope was that going every other week would help keep me from falling into a really depressed, miserable awful state. That it would be less trigger-y and crazy making. I do understand that therapy is supposed to be helpful and make you feel better... but it's hard to believe when that hasn't been my experience!
I guess the good part is that so far, I'm actually talking! I don't know that it's real therapy yet, it's alot of background info still... but he knows OODLES more about me than previous Ts. And, after the 3rd or so session, when I came in and explained that I had been stressed and miserable and not sleeping well for 2 weeks... he quickly figured out we were going to fast and has been slowing things down a bit, things were quite a bit more handle-able after that... which gives me a bit more confidence in him.
Anyway, sorry for blabbing so much - I guess my brain is just spinning. I'm already back to being nervous for this wednesday, and wondering if I did the right thing... I think so though, b/c I feel like I've still got alot of things I need to share, and at only 2x/month, I will never get him caught up to stuff in the present!
Really, I just want to skip to the good part - where we both understand each other and where therapy is all wonderful and helpful and fabulous! When do I get to that part?
