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Originally Posted by guilloche
I'm actually familiar with the window of tolerance. The old consult-T who had diagnosed me as dissociative explained it to me, and drew me a nice picture to take home showing it! (Sigh, she would have been a great T for me... but I digress).
If you're not in the window of tolerance and you're dissociating - ending the session is not really helpful at all. She should be doing things like... slowing down and creating a safe environment, so you can tolerate being there, and working on grounding techniques and ways to help you stay safe and present.
I can't see any value in ending a session because someone is dissociating, it doesn't make sense to me? Did she say anything when she ended the session? Are you sure she ended early (versus it feeling early because you lost time?) Do you remember how the session ended? Not trying to accuse you of anything, I'm just puzzled too...
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No no, totally understand, especially dissociating to the extend I do sometimes, I am very familiar with forgetting or loosing time. I assure you, it was early. I was hitting the train and meeting up with someone long before I was expected.
I don't know, I thnk maybe I got the impression she felt I was wasting her time maybe? She did say 'I am glad you are having a good day'... Seemed geniune about it but from a therapist stand point I guess a good day does not equal real great depths being accessed into a persons psych if they can't bring down the wall that's hiding it. But I've never done this **** before. It all feels so weird. I tried to watch mDR sessions on youtube to see how it goes down, then I tried to youtube regular therapy sessions :/
I have a hard time getting in touch with my emotions and I think she also feels if you are not going to 'feel' what you are saying then what is the point. But geeeeeeeze, I worked hard on not feeling haha. And I do recognize that, but I can't just snap my fingers and magically bing out little sobby me. I don't even like little sobby me. The fact that she ended the session is really making me so aggrivated with myself, and it sucks. Because I am either extremely happy, or extremely down and then I have the little bit inbetween where I know the inevitable is coming, and I hate hate hate getting so low, and she knows I get low, I told her last time.