I can only turn to my family for support right now, living with them is not an option. I have contacted several different shelters in the area for help and am on waiting lists. I have already started the process for custody and CS but that takes time. The shelters I have contacted do offer counseling and what not. I never imagined this, the break up took me by surprise. He says he still loves and cares for me as a person and mother to his children and still has some feelings for me. When he get's upset with me he tends to say things he doesn't really mean like some of the stuff I posted in my OP. He can be a difficult person to understand but over the years I have come to understand him. He ended the relationship because he felt I was too dependent on him, like his crutch. But I just graduated recently and am looking for a job in my field of study. Maybe once he see's that I can be independent without anyone's help he will realize I am a strong person.