So all these staff people are behaving very strangely. Regressive. Like high school girls with a lot of btichy tensión.

And im getting that Its about me. But I dont see what Im doing. Im wears of pissing contests. Im wears that they are trying to come over on me, to assert dominance and Its not working and I not sure why. I do know fromi experience that of I submit it will only enrage them.

Tonight it occurred to me that I do know how i pissed them off.

1. I befriended an old doper. I know why we were friends. He Is high histamine and ptsd like me. We are alike. I learned a lot about ptsd from him. We played a game together with others and had the same ptsd reactions. We became hypseraroused and pissy, then ruminative and weepy. I understood what was happening. I was really happy to have someo.e lime me in the treatment centre. I hope I helped him a little.

2. The psychologist asked how id describe my childhood and I said it was optimal, eich Skeku.g clase and cumturslly enriched. I said I was gifted and borderline mom was profoundlygifted. I know psychologists are famously hostile to the gifted.

3. I dont when remember what I did to the doctor. Reverse engineering im guesing by her giddy tipsy schtick...I dont when want to know.

Someone mentioned staff splitting. I dont split a staff. If a staff Is solid it wont split. Do.t blame youbar poor team cohesiveness on me.

I prefer 3- to woman. Im real open a out the reasons why. Daddy was my nurruring parent. Mommy was my puzzling parent.

I am aware that I am a very attractive women without being particularly pretty. I have presence. Im not an !Important person but I appear to be. Im quite intelligent and Im...unflappable. Cool as an Arab.

What am i when tryong to ask? When people, usually women or feminate men, feel compelled to challenge me, and I recognise that Ive triggered It somehow, does that make Me borderline?

When other people turn I.to pmssy little júnior high school mean firma around me, does that make me borserline?

Of someone feels a twinge of inferioriry or perhaps envy because I can eztablish inmediatez rapport with all the hard cases, does THAT make me borserline?

I feel hated for being good. Hated for whats good about me. Borderline? Narcissist?

Im just say it right now. I am more sensitive to traumatised people than the staff at that place because i am one and I net Ive read more about trauma than any two put together. I still need HELP. Does asking for it and being wears of their inadequacy to help me make me borderline?

Its a bad day. Im just out of treatment and afraid to go back although if im honest with anyone I need to be back.

Please andaré me. Im thumbtyping, not drinking.