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Old Aug 19, 2014, 12:26 AM
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Originally Posted by Curiosity77 View Post
Yes, i know that's what is happening, but i'm not ready to stop right now. I feel so good and alive. I'm being irresponsible, but i feel the need to break free of all the controls in my life. So i'm going with the ride for now. I hope i don't ruin my life with this experiment, but right now i feel like a moth drawn into a flame. I think this could be the start of an epic adventure, i hope so anyway. And of course i wouldn't recommend this to a patient, but i feel like this is right for me right now.
I know. I wish I could say I don't get it, but I do. The lure of hypomania is such that I've been contemplating D/C'ing Zyprexa, just to have the experience again. I MISS my hypomania. Trouble with me is, it doesn't usually stop there and then full-blown mania ensues. It's not worth it. So I take my meds, go to bed on time and hope I can learn to love normality.
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Anxiety
Tardive dyskinesia
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Celexa 20 mg
Gabapentin 1200 mg
Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM
Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN
Lamictal 500 mg
Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression)
Trazodone 150 mg
Zyprexa 7.5 mg

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Curiosity77