Hi I'm Reeh and i just discovered Psych Central today. Nice to meet u all

It's only recently that i began to think i might be depressed, but im not so sure if i really have it and not just using it as an excuse for my poor grades and lack of attendance. I kinda have most characteristics of depression (my score of the depression test on this website was 77), but I still doubt that i might be faking it without me knowing. Whenever i ran into some funny videos i still can laugh, although not as much as i could before. I did lost some weight, but losing 2~3 lbs doesn't seem dramatic.

I'm a college dropout, and that puts a lot of shame on my family. Even worse is that while im trying to go back to the university i used to go (as my family wishes me to do so), im screwing up on the classes i took to raise my GPA. The materials covered are interesting, but i fail to show up to the classes.

To be honest, i don't know what to do now. Everyday i wish that i could be "somehow" caught in an accident and be gone.