Thanks all. ((Sky)) you have no right to tell me that I am freaking out over nothing. How dare you!! And yes I was told rudely that I should let others speak. Do I control others computers. We were not even talking about anything serious. Its my problem that others had stuff on their minds? I have loved to be here; I like to listen and to help if I can. But I was not going to stare at the computer screen. If someone has something to say; say it. I have been on chat several times and have not been able to say much because others are speaking. And thats fine; I know others are here for help. How dare someone say what they did (and we know who); I was trying to keep my mind busy cause I am desperately trying not to harm myself. If its talk that is just "nothing" or if its serious; then so be it. So whatever, I can do this on my own. Like I have. Things are the way they are; so be it. Before you go tell people that they freaked out; THINK ABOUT HOW U HAVE MADE THEM FEEL. I DONT APPRECIATE IT AT ALL!! LIFE IS NOT EASY; FOR ANYONE. I did not make this chat all about me by any means; I had just finished saying; "Someone else say something". So I guess my magical powers prevented others from speaking or typing. How amazing. You know I had gathered my emotions and I should not have bothered coming on to read any of this. You make comments that u shouldnt. So who freaked out; maybe look in the mirror and think before u want to say such bull.

I apologize to everyone else. I am very angry after reading this. I dont give a crap anymore what happens. Maybe my peace will come. I am tired of life and tired of all the ****** that comes with it. Its amazing that when I had first come into chat; I had verbalized what was going on but was not considered at all when the bull came after. And u know what; I am not the only one that felt this way. I cant say who else was upset but I am not the only one who supposedly "freaked out". Its crap like this that makes people shut down and not want to talk to others. I feel violated for expressing my feelings so I will do what works for me. Shove it down and what takes over; fine; I do not care at all. I hate life, I hate myself, my ex, the fact that I have to see my kids cry and have them grab onto my legs because they have to go to dads. Well enough; I wont win this thing; we all know it. So ****** it; I want to die and that is that. So get mad at me all u want; hate me all u want. Join the crowd. So I will go freak out all by my lonesome. Thanks for the lovely words.

JUST.