You're not a bad person, and your dx isn't a kind of punishment for past sins.

Although I have entertained the same train of thought in the past.

I know its hard to see the grey area right now, but can you try to entertain the thought that you're a good person who (for whatever reason) during challenging times has resorted to bad behaviours?

That's how I see it anyway.

Because if we were actually bad people we wouldn't even care to look back at the damage we leave behind us.

Instead we look back, beat ourselves up, and get caught up in contrition like crazy.

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