I'm mostly able to hold it together at work and in public. When I'm manic my coworkers notice that I'm hyper and comment on it but I keep the really bizarre behavior down. They notice when I'm depressed too but again, I keep it together mostly and blame it on being tired or just having a bad day or the students getting on my nerves. I can't say I act perfectly fine but you know.

I couldn't hide my many long term absences due to hospitalizations though. Apparently last year there was a rumor that I tried to kill myself. That was sweet. Very nice coworkers I have. B!tches. But whatever, they don't bother me to my face so I just ignore them.

I have come to doubt my bp1 dx because of the fact that I can keep the manic behavior under wraps in public...but what's happening in my head is crazy so I guess maybe. And then also I don't suppose the label really matters.