I personally wouldn't recommend reading up on BPD just simply through "googling" it. I know its really difficult not to, but I've learned from experience that a lot of things that may not even apply to you are listed in certain articles and on websites. It made me really scared and even more confused because not only am I trying to figure out who I am and what's going on with me, but reading all that information was far too much to handle at once! I think reading these forums will be much more beneficial for you, as you can read personal stories and learn that not everyone is the same Best of luck to you.