I'm so sorry, regretful, that you're miserable and depressed. That's where I went when I stopped drinking. The friend who had confronted me told me the misery and depression came because I wasn't numb to the anymore ... and that I needed to find out the causes of the feelings, not try to shove they away & ignore them.

Therapy was a slow start for me, but I did understand that I needed to revisit my past and be honest with how I felt. I had to get over the denial, forgive myself & others for being human, work very hard at not returning to alcohol.

Sobriety is hard work, if it's going to have any degree and peace and joy in it. I was ten yrs sober then got hit with stuff I didn't want to work on more that I wanted to be sober & had to start all over again. I don't think I'll do that again ... the second time was ten times harder!

Take care of you--make you a priority.

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