I was the super "sorry" woman. For all the same reasons as mentioned above. Once my mind was wiped clean, I had to deal with all the shame and low self worth. That remains a daily fight even now. I hestitate with important decisions but, becoming more self assured when I am capable of expressing my motives and reasoning. I am trying to count on my own level of cognitive skills again. It would seem that by those around me, assure and support my abilty to decipher the input -output messages.