I noticed a trend where, just before going to the doctor or my counselor, i feel great and even feel like I do not need any help and can actually do this by myself. I still have that little voice in my head telling me I should give up and that I am not good enough or not meant to be happy, but it is not as overwhelming as on other days. I can do my work and tell jokes. I have an appointment with both tomorrow, doctor in the morning and counselor in the evening and from yesterday I started feeling ok. I had a bad episode last night, but this morning I feel like the old me that could take on the world.