I understand MadMusician. We ask the same questions over and over because their is not simple solution to this disease. We can even kow that the dark thoughts that flood our emotions are not true, but objective, literal truth is overwhelmed by the diseased emotions.

I believe we ask the same questions, and make the same self-belitting statements over and over because they become the only way we have of reaching out to the world to ask for help.

I don't know if that's true for MM, but I know it is true for me.