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my memory is pretty bad. i had one therapist who used to let me tape the sessions. i'd listen to them during the week and was often amazed at how different the session was from what i remembered! sometimes i thought her comments had a bit of a tone on them but they didn't seem to have that tone on the tape. sometimes segments of the conversation (about hard stuff) would have been conveniently 'forgotten'. i saw some of my repeated patterns of interaction. i wish i could still do that...

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Wow, I could never tape my sessions. The only way I would tape my sessions would be if I could filter myself out, and only listen to what my T said. That's how much I can't deal with myself. I wouldn't want to listen to the sound of my own voice. I would get too consumed with things like: "Oh, %#@&#!! How could I have said that to him? I'm such a %#@&#! idiot."