Mouse, sometimes I want to do things just to 'stir things up' a bit. I know that I don't want to die by taking pills or cutting myself deep. But I do know that I do this at times in which I feel like I want to get my T's attention, or times in which I feel too 'normal.' I'm not used to the feeling. I am used to always living in extremes. I guess if I'm floating in the middle somewhere I am not comfortable, so I yearn to do something to change that.