Feel like I pretty much lost everything because of this even now me insurance since I lost my job back in July. I have nothing left and made some really bad choices and engaged in the risky behavior characterized by hypomania. My psych docs even asked me why i waited so long at my age of 39 to seek help and not much they could do or advise. So now just paying cash for the remaining refills of medication clonozepam, lexapro, Prozac and Gabapentin and hoping for the best. I made really bad choices and been screwed over by people and i am the one who is called crazy, paranoid, weird and other things behind my back