Thank you all once again for taking the time to respond to me. Sorry I have taken so long to post a reply I was hoping if I waited longer I could update with a more positive response from the therapy working unfortunately that is not the situation.

While read through the posts I just wanted to clarify some things. I did a lot of prepping for EMDR therapy before I called her and set up my first appointment to meet her. I wanted to make sure that EMDR was for me and that I was ready to undertake such an intense treatment of therapy. When we first discussed it she didn't mention anything about phases that was never discussed. All she said was mostly explaining to me how the treatment itself works.

Usually our sessions begin with "how was your week?" or "How have you been since I last saw you?" things like that and then usually I will explain to her how my week has been and if there's anything on my mind bothering me and then we go from there to EMDR. Usually she asks me to recreate images of trauma that happened to me. I told her that this doesn't seem to be helping. I have also tried the approach that was mentioned here of possibly recreating the emotions but that didn't seem to help either. I feel out of it sometimes it is hard to stay focused.

Like the other day I was at a store and I hear a kid crying and throwing a tantrum. I immediately had some flashbacks to some very horrible things that happened to me as a kid and the first thought that came to my head was is the kid alright? What if someone is hurting him? I became anxious, depressed, and traumatized but then I looked over and saw that he just wanted a candy bar and his mom said no so he threw a fit and started crying over it. When I see my therapist she says I want you to recreate that image in your head so I did but when we did EMDR nothing happened. I tried to see if perhaps bringing back those traumatic feelings would somehow help but I couldn't even bring them back. I told her that if she expects me to feel traumatized I would have to be at the store with the kid standing nearby me throwing a tantrum for me to recreate and feel the same feelings I felt at the time or else it doesn't work.

I am still giving it more time. The part that makes me so anxious and frustrated is that I walk into her office and most times I leave exactly the same way I walked in. I have given this more time because I know this therapy takes longer for some people. So far it has done nothing much for me. When I get anxious and frustrated and I just wanna cry it all out it's mostly because I was hoping by now I would have some form of results or at least some answers that say to me "yes the treatment is working and it is working well even if it is taking a little longer then expected." But we are hitting my 3 month EMDR therapy treatment mark here and things have not changed so much so I feel stuck not knowing what else to do other then give it more time.