ak,

knowing that you are understandably in a lot of pain and that i'm not good at conveying warmth when writing, know that i am saying this in the kindest gentlest voice..

how has this gone from you deciding to write him off to him writing you off?

this has all happened in your mind. the reality is that you emailed him and he hasn't written back, not that he has written you off. it doesn't mean anything more than that and you don't know the circumstances or his thoughts. (like me though you will guess; it is our background that makes us do that). I don't think he sounds like someone who would make a decision like that and carry it out passively (by not writing back and I don't think he seems like someone who would abandon anyone, especially you. you are scaring yourself with your own thoughts. do you see what i mean?

see if you can find a way to think about it that is less painful, like 'For whatever reason, he hasn't emailed me back yet'... no guessing what his thoughts are or deciding you can know what his thoughts are.

I think if you can do this it will make you feel better.

((( ak )))

ECHOES