I'm going to try and change myself.

My mom and dad are urging me to be social. They said I need to stop being scared, stop complaining about being depressed all the time, and start changing things to make my life better.

I still feel scared in getting rejected, criticized, ignored, and mistreated in various ways. I also have a hard time keeping a positive attitude about it, so if something really small happens (if it's just a minor incident), I get triggered and I retreat back to being reclusive.

It feels like I have to go through this even though it's painstaking for me. It will hurt me having to go through negative situations. I was told that I'm missing out on opportunities to learn from my mistakes.

I have a feeling this is going to be really hard for me. My mom said she's to the point where she doesn't know how else to help me, because I haven't listened to what she told me to do. I know haven't listened to her, but I feel like there is something for everything that is preventing me from achieving what I want. I just can't help but fall back into a depressive state and give up on everything.

This will be hard.

What do I need to know about social skills?

What do I need to know about social cues?

How do I improve my confidence?