Well, that I know. I believe we all know that the simplest solution to being angry or sad is being happy, moving forward and smile. But there are times when I can't just be happy, feel good or move on. It's not like I want to think these things, they just come at the least expected time. I dream about all that has happened, I can't enjoy a lot of things I do to please myself and the harder I try to smile and be nice to other people, the worse I react when people do the tiniest thing I dislike.

I recognize the symptoms of depression and I'm under medication, but I can't stop thinking and feeling so confused. I also know that everything happens for a reason and that it takes time for such kind of experiences to make sense. But still, I can't, I just can't clear my mind and find some peace. It's like when the dementors are near Harry Potter and he feels like he will never be happy again. And I also know that my mind is playing tricks on me, and that's what I need help with, to clear my mind, to stop thinking about all this.