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Originally Posted by Breadfish
Ooh, I love raiding/depleting the emergency stack of the hospital. xD I once came there. "How many oxazepam/seresta do you need?" Woman who was escorting me: "We need 40."
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Hehe, well I'll give the nurses credit where they are due... they are smart and I wouldn't have thought of taking the mick in that situation lol. Was frustrating that the pharmacy keeps getting things wrong though... found out I am 2 days short of my hay fever tabs but thankfully, I think the pollen count is down and I may be out of the main effect of it now anyway.
I find conversations with outsiders often surprisingly insightful and calming, in a way. Did you experience that, too?[/QUOTE]
Yes and no... it was insightful in so much as I could relate to how he felt from before I went in (and I'm going to get to this below in response to originalme)... and no, but more due to my surroundings... if it had been a strictly one on one in a quiet room I probably would have been more comfortable but the noise and activity going on around me kept me on edge... with that said, I still managed to sustain the conversation without flipping out so my tolerance is improving.
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Originally Posted by secretwhisper
I definitely agree with you on the hospital thing...safety and meds and then out. It really is a last resort thing when you cannot keep yourself safe.
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Thanks Secret, I appreciate the message and it's great to see you about on here
I hope your T session went well today and thinking of you.
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Originally Posted by Frankbtl
Hi TJ, really positive first step into the creative centre!! But if the noise remains a problem, maybe you could explain to the organizers that at times you may need to wear your earphones?? Next visit could maybe be a short one as well if you think that would help??
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Was what they were doing at the time I guess (art workshop, which doesn't interest me... but the organiser was the one I needed to speak to about stuff in the community)... but yeah usually, earphones are my default whether others like it or not hehe.
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And could be really good "socially"/sharing experiences/sharing support/learning from others too...........maybe invaluable. But from your experiences with your other "friend" from the hospital kind of take those bits at your own pace
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It's not so much that I'm really 'unsocial'... groups are hard work for me due to the multiple conversations going on... and irrespective of one on one or group, I just tire quickly. I guess I just have to start building up my stamina again.
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So.......when are you back there?
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Next Tuesday for creative writing
will just be one session a week for me I think once outpatient. As of the 5th sept there may be group therapy dependant on how they assess me for personality disorder.
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Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe
Hi TJ, glad that things are moving in the right direction for you. I've been following this thread but keeping quiet, mostly because I've not known what to say. However, I can relate to the post about the UK system, I'd add that a patient who complies with meds and who keeps safe won't get inpatient treament and is unlikely to get much (or any) OP or community support either. It doesn't matter how deep or treatment resistant that depression is, the UK system isn't interested. There are differences from area to area, big cities have slightly more to offer than the shires but the bottom line is risk and the way that the system currently measures risk downplays depressive illness.
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This is exactly how I felt and before my mental stability went right through the floor, I recall how much I could relate to your frustration. My GP was at his wits end with the system and had exhausted as many avenues as he could.
This is most likely the depression speaking, but I actually felt so bad when things started to fall into place for me (my GP had been able to refer me to a psychiatrist due to meeting criteria... all this was of course a few weeks before it went to hell)... literally because I could not fight as hard as you have done and was spiralling... and yet you were still stuck in that horrible loop... I felt guilty and was not surprised that you had not posted in my subsequent threads.
All of the above of course feeds into the self hate a lot of us go through... but I want to say here and now that I admire you for your strength... and I hope (truly hope) that something clicks into place for you (and others) without having to experience the horrendous spiral that landed me in hospital... I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
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Dog walking is a great way to add structure to your life, my dog has been essential therapy for me, I can't imagine how I'll manage back at work without her by my side.
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Yeah, my wife often joked in the past that we should get our dog registered as a
PAT dog so I could take her into work with me
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Originally Posted by waterknob1234
Hi TJ, sounds like you had a good day. Sounds like you are getting quite busy. Helping your wife cook, riding your bike, creative therapy, and working on your peddle power mobile. I don't quite know what that is but it sounds like a peddle car, it sounds like something fun. Oh, and lets not forget walking the dog. I find dogs to be great therapy. My dog always loves me. I may have had the most horrible day but my dog will still cuddle up to me, and he is a 74 pound bulldog/lab mix. Dogs give unconditional love. Anyway, hope things continue to look up for you. |
Thanks Water, Yesterday was very busy and a good day all round
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