TJ, re: second post
I'm glad your feeling a bit better but hey there's a lot going on for you it's got to be feeling overwhelming at times. That's understandable.
Just remember that you can be in control of everything going on around you with the crisis team etc. And try to take as much control as you can, afterall the support should all be about you, what's going to work best for you, what's in your best interests.
So if there's triggers around any part of that support then speak up. Maybe it'll help having a word/phrase you can have in your mind to pull on if someone/something is/has started that triggering process. A word/phrase which will pause the situation and give you that bit of breathing space to re-orientate yourself and allow you to take that bit more control.
And perhaps you and your wife can come up with some things to pass on to the crisis team to bear in mind when they are supporting you e.g. you want advance notice of any visits (!!), you want to have a plan with them for a weekly/two weekly (?) basis only for now.
And yes, speak up if you can, nothing at all wrong with saying "I'm not ready for.......yet, it would help a lot more if we talked about..........".
And as for psychiatrists........write things down............they should be working with you in whatever way you need them to be. Remember this is kind of a transitionary period in settling back home, it's natural you might struggle, it's natural you might want more support, it's natural that days may go up and down but they should be there to support you with all that, and to come through it. Just let them, hey?? Just pass all that on, hey??

Slight diversion here, but your breathing and grounding exercises............do you actually have them writen/printed out?? While I know things can come on so suddenly.........maybe at the times you have a lead up too...........it might help if they are there in "black and white" so you aren't having to tax your already overtaxed mind to try to dig them out. And a lot more clarity/focus there?? Just a thought...........and back to...........

And I've got to say SO WELL DONE for still managing to speak to the woman from the crisis team on the phone!!!!! Now that must have taken real strength regardless of/despite the way you were feeling. Respect!!!!!!



Alison