Thank God literally my Mom managed to heal enough to come home from the nursing home. I am so grateful. My brother, neice and I have all been trying hard to take good care of her. She stayed with me almost all of this past week because her furnice broke and it was too cold for her to stay home. That was ok. It made us both nervous because this is a very small apartment, but we made do and it worked.

A member of my immediate family, (and the one I love the most in the whole world), has allowed his wife to say vicious and nasty lies about me that are totally untrue. I am devastated beyond belief. I love his wife and I love their children. They are my family. How do you "unlove" family. You just don't.

Mom called me and informed me she had received a phone call from her and a set of pictures of the kids. She told me how beautiful they are and how happy she was to get the pictures. Of course, since no one is speaking to me, I didn't get any pictures. Also, he called Mom from Iraq. I didn't get a call of course, because he's not speaking to me.

I asked her if she at least mentioned my name to him and Mom exclaimed, "No! If I had he might not call me again!"

Well, thank you so very much, Mother. She's better and the pattern is starting again. I don't think I can stand going back to the old patterns again. I just don't think I can stand to be sacrificed yet once again.

I have to go to her house tomorrow. If anyone reads this, please pray for me or send positive thoughts or whatever positive things you do.

Thank you for reading this.

Jan