Today I feel so ashamed, this feeling has been creeping up and up on me since yesterday and started with a conversation about SI. I know that for the time being at least I can keep myself safe so I was astounded to be told that my level of risk is really high. I felt like I was somehow being dishonest, either in my affirmed intent to keep myself safe or in having admitted to the things I've done to myself in the past. The T that I was talking to said she had no option other than to inform my GP and develop a risk management plan, I respect her decision but somehow I feel that I have caused way too much bother. I saw my GP and he was so kind to me and that has just made me feel even more ashamed.