I definitely think I panic too much about remembering/forgetting... because I am very aware of it. So sometimes during therapy while he is talking, I'm saying to myself, "Ok. Pay close attention. You need to be able to remember this." Then I miss what he said.

I am beginning to think that I'm unconsciously forgetting what he says because if I remember when I go home, then I might be soothed. God forbid! Another thing to add to the attachment. Right now I'm disconnected when I leave. I am unable to take therapy outside of therapy.... maybe I am unconsciously forgetting so that I can keep myself safe... from being safe. Damn.. This is stuff is getting crazy.