I was recently assualted by a male friend and the day after it happened I became very paranoid and started hallucinating again. It's been so long since I've dealt with this, that it's causing a lot of stress.

The first 3 days after the assault I watched every car go by, and I kept hearing men talking and saw reflections of men in the windows. I slept with my lights on...all of them! Then it just got so bad I had to be admitted into the hospital. I was there for 10 days.

They had started me on new meds the day before I went home. I found out I was allergic to the one med so I quit taking it (the doctor ok'd that I stop taking it) and started on Cogentin. I had been on it before with no problems, but at a higher dose than before. I started getting all kinds of unpleasant side effects. I cut my dosage in half and it seems to be better. On the higher dosage I was hallucination (auditory and visual) and there haven't been near the side effects as I was having.

I am afraid to go out in public without my dad at the moment...I'm afraid I'll see the "friend" in public. Half the time I feel like I'm going crazy with the way my meds have been affecting me.

I started trancing again...not good. Recently my behavior has been odd...Like one night I opened my dad's pill bottle and attemted to take one of his pills. The odd thing is that I don't remember this...I thought I dreamed it...but I saw the pill in the kitchen after I woke up the next morning...realizing it wasn't a dream. Another time I went to re-wet my contacts...instead of grabbing my solution I grabbed a bottle of pop...opened it and poured it over my face. I really don't know what's happened to me.