I have entered a never-ending state of sadness, and the one person who says he will always be there for me, is partially making me more depressed because I can't have him. It isn't because he doesn't want to be mine, but it's because I know I can't let myself. I know it is pure torture when the person you love doesn't care about you anymore and has thrown you away, but it's hardly better that despite knowing they care so much, it won't work… Why does my life have to be so sad and complicated? Why does it seem everyone else around me have it so easy? I hope that our friendship is strong enough no matter what happens.