my mother just kept explaining to me on the phone that I needed to accept I was less than average pretty and I just shouldn't expect so much of life.

when I said to her I had thought I look good until just now and I was really devastated to hear that she got angry and said I was silly and why I had all these ideas of myself being that great and I should just lower my expectations.

why would she say something like that to me right now when I already feel like crap? why would she take the last little bit of self-confidence away I had left?
now there is nothing. I should just die. why would she torture me like that?
she could as well have said "**** off and die".