Alexandra... I have to admire your journey and the work you have done. This is incredible to me but I suppose that is just how I react to it. I think that sometimes we talk of how much we remember or don't of what we shared and I think much of that is a protective manuever. That would mean you are working through an awful lot there. (Hopefully or potentially.) I would wonder if there would be times that you just might not have wanted to listen to it again.... (due to pain or not being ready to deal with whatever....etc...)