I am a photographer for a company that takes pictures for some of the school systems in my area. Things get super busy right now because school registrations are happening and stress levels really rise. I love my job but I am handling the stress very poorly right now because of a spike in my mood. In a nutshell, I made a dumb move a few months ago and got thinking that it was a great idea to get off my mood stabilizer. Bad decision; really bad. I was off it for almost 3 weeks and I was tossed into a manic from hell. I am still trying to get back to the dose I was on but its a slow process. I am a royal mess and I feel like I need to talk to my boss about what is happening to me so he does not think I am just flaking out on him. I am going through some serious episodes right now, and today I screwed up so bad that I was sent home from a job. I needed to be to the job at seven and I had such bad "brain fog" that I passed the school several times and did not see it. I ended up on the other side of town not knowing where I even was anymore. My husband needs me to keep this job and frankly, I need me to keep this job. I am going to have to go in and try and explain this all to my head boss and I am scared out of my mind and have no clue how to approach this. I am popping a seam and losing what I had left of any marbles in my head. If anyone has any advice on how I can approach this, I would be really grateful.
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