First, my dog died.

Then within a week, one of my best friends committed suicide.

I just feel so alone. I'm cycling through emotions at a rapid rate. I'm upset that I couldn't have done more to help her. I'm angry at the system for abusing her again and again, then leaving her so miserable that she took her own life. I'm angry because stigma was stopping her from recovering.

I'm so angry and alone and afraid.