Hey all,

I am trying to come to terms with a recent episode I had. It started toward then of my work day (just about when I would heading home) and lasted through the next day.

It started a heavy feeling of weighed down -- I was listen to music on my drive home and everything looked really super clear and sharp and beautiful...but there was a huge feeling of despair on top of it all...and paranoia...in particular about my job...for no reason (there are no indication at work that my job is in anyway in jeaopardy, quite the opposite in fact) I had this feeling like I was going to lose my job because of my behavior problems (of which I don't have that I know of). This feeling of despair increased through out the night until I was next to wanting to cry (I never feel like crying, even when depressed), but here I was just a step away from it--I couldn't concentrate on anything...I was completely stuck by this despair but also with the intensity of the world around me...

We started watching Robin Williams Stand Up (how people have done that this last week) and eventually the feeling eventually started to come and go....but was still mostly there until the following day until I was about leave work...

It was the first time I remember feeling this...it was truly bizzare....

Any thoughts (I know you all can't diagnose), but I am curious what your OPINIONS are....

Thanks for reading,

~angry1541.

EDIT: I should add it was such a strange episode that I scared my wife....hmm...