i don't have a "best" female friend now. i had one for about 25 years and occasionally she would go off her meds. well, 5 or 6 times, she went off of them. i would take her to the Psych hospital and she would resume taking them and we would go on.

but the last time she went off them, the effects of it was so strong on me that i had to detach and quit seeing her. i've taken so much abuse, verbal, for so many years and as much as i love her......i can't do it anymore.

i miss her more than you can imagine. we told one another everything and we have the same warped, twisted, bizarre, dry and weird humour. plus she is also part Indian, so we related very deeply there.

typing this brings tears to my eyes. i haven't seen her in over a year. she is the only person that i took with me to photograph Indian rodeo. when our husbands cheated, we both went through the HIV tests together.....it was a powerful friendship.

i really would like to have a close woman friend IRL. i have several here, but i can't pick you up to go shopping or get a cup of coffee.