It has been a long time since I have gone so far out. I agree with with Mary Alice that it feels good, for awhile. It was scary at first though. I wanted to do something to bring myself back but after I reminded myself that my body was indeed there and solid even though it didn't seem to be, I calmed down and the fear faded.

Usually running is a good grounding technique for me. It brings me back into total awareness of my body but this time it didn't. Luckily I didn't injure myself by pushing too hard. I did end up with a sore thigh muscle but it feels better today. Softly stroking my body often helps but I had very little sensation in my skin so it didn't work. I have a few grounding techniques that I use after ritual work, it didn't occur to me to use them.

Today I am back, securely in my body. My T called me first thing this morning and we have an appointment scheduled for thursday morning. She was willing to adjust her schedule today so I could come in, In fact she was pushing for me to come in today but when I told her I want to journal and paint about it first and spend some time in the garden thinking about it she became comfortable with my choice to wait until thursday.

I am going to go get dressed now. Thanks everyone for being here.
Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying