I think you should just forget about it and move on with your life. How would you feel if you found out when you are eighty that the stalking really wasn't real and that you'd wasted your whole life on it? Because I personally don't think it is real. I think you are wasting your time thinking about it. I hope you can find happiness and forget about all of this. I hope you are not distressed by it. It must be very scary.