Lonely... I was born and raised in Northern Ohio where I had a few friends. I now live in South Florida. My oldest daughter lives in Costal North Carolina, my youngest in Oceanside California. The only family member I had a relationship with was my grandmother who passed away 3 years ago. My father committed suicide on Christmas Day 3 years ago. I haven't talked to my mother or sister in almost 7 years. Yeah I'm lonely as hell. The only person I have left is my wife of almost 25 years and depression, being bipolar and the fact I'm so clingy to her is pushing her away. Everyday is a struggle to not want to deal with lifes demands. I thought my fathers suicide was a cop out at one time. Not so much anymore.