(((((Petunia )))) gentle hugs.

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. Your husband loves you. It is unfortuate that the things that you have been through affect the ones you love. But know that in his seeking help, it may be just what you and he need. He may be able to better understand you and your relationship. It may be a really good thing.

My thoughts are with you.

lemmkins