Possible trigger

Well, it is official. My T and Pdoc filed paperwork with my job. I have never felt worse about myself. Every time anyone mentions back to school i start crying. I can't watch TV for the ads and even my pharmacy has a big Back to School display I have to walk through to get to the pharmacist. The "my allergies are acting up" excuse is so lame, but it helps explain the red eyes etc. My identity is/was so wrapped up in my job. I am not sure what to do with myself for the next 12 weeks. I am so depressed my pdoc changed some of my scripts so I wouldn't be tempted to use medications to OD. This is supposed to help me take care of myself...doesn't seem to be such a great idea right now.