I have no other place to vent, no one to talk to. So I figured I'd share it here, continue to share my story. I feel like I have no control over anything anymore.
First off, I feel like I was 'the man' growing up, and it all changed as I got older, as stated in my previous thread, how it all changed.
I was recently ousted from an online community I used to participate in regularly. I once told them I was schizophrenic, and slowly over time it was turned against me. Instead of the community being mature enough to be sympathetic with what I live with, they used it as an excuse to try to cyberbully me and control me. One guy even going so far enough to make fun of me hearing voices. All I ever did was try to be fun and help people, in the only way I could, but to them it looked like a psychotic adventure. It's like once people see that 'label' on you, it completely defines your status in life. They were the only friends I had. If I could even call them friends. I have no friends. No one to support me. My mother no longer supports me, in fact she never did. Since today she's now controlling my medicine, thinking I'm becoming an addict for taking so much medicine.
I visited my doctor yesterday, instead of giving me the treatment I need, what I stated worked for me, he instead arrogantly refused and said I just need therapy. I don't need therapy, I've been pretty positive about life for recent years, but since now nothing is going my way, I am slowly becoming depressed again.
I have no control over anything that goes on in my life. Everyone takes advantage of me. I feel like I'm cursed. Designed to suffer for a crime I didn't do.