Hi Lone77

I just had to respond to your post. I think you are amazing to be able to articulate your feelings at your age. I am 45 and I still have this longing for a maternal figure. When I was your age I had these feelings too and I would imagine myself being cared for and supported by older women (it has been a pattern throughout my life). I am not seeing a T and I just wish i had spoken to someone about it when I was your age as i have carried this around for so long feeling ashamed of the way i felt for older women.

I would say definitely try to bring this up with your T - she sounds very professional and hopefully she will be understanding and able to guide you through these feelings. You have been though so much and I am sure by disclosing these feelings this will enable her to actually help you more.

But take care and do it in your own way & in your own time.

You are reaching out which is a great first step.

i know how much this hurts and I just wanted you to know you are not alone.