Well, that sounds like it could be me. This pertains to heartbreak rather than death, but I haven't handled heartbreak well over the course of my life anyway.... I see a therapist, but I can't say he's helping me with this all that much.

Anyway, I'm tired of this girl, but I think about her daily out of nowhere... like I made the biggest mistake of my life. But it's ridiculous, and saddening to be unable to move on from this stupid thing. I want to move on more than anything. My mind wants her back but I have long since realized that I have to move on from any unrequited feelings.

Maybe having trouble connecting with the personality of the average girl is part of the problem- it often feels as though I threw away a golden lottery ticket.