Thank you everyone for your input, and as I know it was HUGE mistake on my end I cannot simply let her go....yes the lies started with my ex, I would suggest counseling but she doesn't respond to anythng i send her....I have been sending her messages twice a week, to not smother her...and the response I got today was "please stop" And "she meant she was done, she feels taken advantage of for months, there is no going back for her, and now she feels harassed" I have not been overbearing in contacting her....if this is truly how she feels.....how do I just turn it off, i love her and miss her so much....and my regret is so heavy....