hmmm, my quick reply didnt post.

Thank you all for the input, I know my mistake was huge and my regret for making it is great. Yes the lies started with the ex, but I shouldnt have allowed that baggage to follow. It was hard to offer counseling, when she doesnt talk to me at all. She messaged me today, stating that when she said she was done, she meant it...there is no going back for her...she feels taken advantage of for months....and that she now feels harassed. I only message her twice a week, so she nows I still care, and to let her know how things are going. But, if this is how she truly feels, how do i turn it off, how do i give up the fight that I was determined to win...not only for myself but for the sake of our relationship? I love her and miss her so much it hurts, yes its my own fault, but how can i just give up.....