Yeah...I called as I am thinking as I have only been sober for a year, there's a good chance that I have never had a 'real' episode sober. I HAVE had a serious bout of depression, but I am thinking I actually experiencing true hypomanic experience....

We'll see what the doctor says....he's out today....so might be Monday -- I am not in any danger to myself or others right now...(other than to my pocketbook or the chores that need to be done -- watch edging sidewalks, here I come! Sweep the house? No problem!!!)....

So...the only issue I have is that it's not exactly pleasurable....and that might be anxiety...where the Gaba might be helping a bit for the anxiety, I don't think it's true there....else the paranoia about losing my job, house, etc wouldn't really be there....I when I say paranoia I don't mean fleeting concerns...this was beat you over the head crawl into a corner and shake and cry paranoia...a sense of inevitability.

Anyway I will keep you all updated, I might see if there is a better/different mood stabilizer I might be able to be put on.