first, i think you should find a new ob/gyn.

you were honest and you ought to be.

none of us are perfect parents. i have often wondered if i am an effective mother because of my mental illness. and yet, i also have come to realize that even the most seemingly well adjusted person has something. i had to go off my meds (and i did it on purpose) to have my second baby. my midwife was soooo worried about my mental health. i have a friend who got pregnant unexpectedly and had to come off her meds. she's due soon. in both cases there *are* doctors out there that can be helpful and i would encourage you to find one.

and... well, i'll say this, as hard as some of it's been, there has been something soothing about holding my baby in the dark and just rocking. like it's just me and the kid and no one else. just my personal experience.