I have followed that same pattern so don't think you are alone in whaat you have done. when I am not doing well I send long detailed emails to people telling them all kinds of intimate things about what is going on with me because some how in my mind I think that they are going to be able to help "fix" me. they have the solution to my problem and the more details I give them the better. it seems like such a good idea at the time but I always end up feeling embarrassed and humiliated after I have done so. I cant believe I have done it. but it is something I can not help doing. it is like I am possessed. I simply have to do it. I cant stop myself. I absolutely believe they have the answer and can help me. they have told me that I have scared the hell out of them and wondered if they needed to call the cops to do a welfare check on me. I think it is a totally bipolar thing to do myself cause I only do it when I am cycling. so know you are not alone. take care.